'Mawmaw'

The pain eats through my stomach,
Consuming my mind.

My emotions leave me defenseless
With no control.

I never wished to know you
Now I do.

They're right,
You don't know what you have until it's gone.

There's so much I could have atleast tried to share
But I didn't.

Now you are there
And not where I"ll see you again.

I never really knew you
Why must it hurt so bad.

I avoid it all
But it's crashing in.

I love you and miss you.
R.I.P. October 19th, 2009.

The Tears I Shed

Of all those hurting
Who am I to complain?

My heart breaks
But doesn't even flee to you

I wish to escape
And rely on you.

Why does this matter
I love him & trust him

Yet you are perfect
and I still look for his comfort

If my pain is minor
I'd be dead as another

My heart skips a beat for him
Yet you are pushed aside

My world is falling apart
But I still am trying to catch it

You're the only place my heart longs to escape to
Please hold the pieces for me.

Guard My Heart

I close my eyes in hope of relief
Yet what I get are tears
The nightmares overpower me
Leave me wondering what to do
Should I guard my heart?
Do I leave it open for you
And await the hurt?
Or trust that it will all work out?
My heart wants you desperately
So just grab me and tell me you love me.

♥