A Beautiful Nightmare

All the promises you made have turned
into awful memories
And all memories have turned
into cruel jokes
The pain from them
could make a nightmare seem beautiful.
I should have listened to all they said
But there's no going back
I am lonely and I love you
yet that means nothing anymore
You used to be the one
I turned to when I was this upset
But how do you turn to the one
who hurt you?
Love only makes the pain worse
Yet  i still cling to it.
You're my best friends
how could I?
I'll love you for a long time
But what's even the point?
To say I don't need you
Would be a lie
Or to say I don't want you would be cray
Am I nothing to you?
Time to face my beautiful nightmare.... alone